AshenPhoenix

Welcome back me!

2010-06-13T18:11:00.003+01:00

So its almost been over a year since I've actually been here, so Welcome back me!, So what have I been up to, so here I come a little older and a little wiser searching for inspiration to get me back, Now most of you would think that's silly I am the "me" in question well actually I at that stage in life where I think I've lost that little bit of myself that I desperately want back, for example I no longer find the inspiration to write any more so I've done what I spent most of my teenage years doing and for the past year quite sadly have let go, I've am indulging myself within a good book to seek refuge in the world of literature rather then people. And for scenery I have settled in the void of a paintbrush and pencils, to work myself to quiet albeit busy person.

Not that I am saying that the past year in my life has no meaning, I have learn many things for the good and the bad, the weight gain being that worst bit but I'm working away at it appreciated or not but I have decided that I will update regularly what I will be getting up to this summer, Giving the site a make over is on my agenda I think the place needs sprucing up a bit who agrees?

Anyways another day another world be back soon.. Ash

Phoenix

2009-08-01T20:50:00.000+01:00

In the untold night, burnt and broken
Ashes for words, Hardly outspoken
My solitude erasures, a silent token
Ruptured bursts, fiery crimson desire
A risen spirit, an embodiment of fire
I am the Ashen Phoenix

Unconditional love

2009-07-27T20:53:00.000+01:00

Ebony ribbons poisoned fears

Lost in a world neither here nor there

A requiem of a tale unknown

In the open doors slipping desires

Searching a paradox best left alone

Yearning an comfort in a open void

Locked in a thorny embrace here I lie

An aching core a empty heart

Over looked in my solid demeanour

An icy mask demanding eyes

Beneath the surface a single snowflake

Melting like a tear drop in your palm

Blog

2009-06-26T14:24:00.003+01:00

Welcome back me!

Dumb things my sister says to me...

2009-06-03T15:08:00.004+01:00

These are some extracts from the conversations me and my dearest sister have had some of them Just classic sam moments. I'm just going to list them in order of how I remember them..

Sam: Its Hygienic to eat in a toilet right?

Viagra Is a gel right?

The term Mammals describes creatures that live on land...No wait it means they breathe.. Right?

I want a banna hammock...

I like a man who can play an instrument.. (Bless she actually meant a musical instrument I had this one going fro DAYS!!)

Can I punch the life gaurd.. Please just once..

ohh lets satre at the guys and see if he notices ..(Me: why?) Sam: Because we can!!

The Autumn falls

2009-06-02T19:34:00.000+01:00

The autumn falls

The leaves that fall

Make me crawl

Make me fall

Under the stars

Against the wind

They hit me hard, in my face

With simple grace

With powerful force, they roar and scream

With colors so bright

Structure so crisp

They leave a trail among the stars in the night

And in my hair throughout the day

But best of all in my mind and in my soul

They paint a vivid picture

To make me remember it all

The autumn falls

Fairy realm

2009-06-02T19:30:00.000+01:00

Listen close to the whispers
on the autumn winds...
for they tell of the secret
passage to the fairy realm.
Through twining vines
and tangled trees, a hidden
path leads to an enchanted
place, rich and strange.

Dragon dreams

2009-06-02T19:29:00.001+01:00

Look with the open
mind of a child...
let imagination
be your guide...

a new world will
unfold, before
your very eyes...

a wondrous place of
dreams and dragons...
now spread your
wings and fly.

Faries

2009-06-02T19:26:00.001+01:00

Follow your wildest dreams,
wherever they may take you...
Celebrate each moment you're given,
for your time on earth is precious...
Remember to believe in magic,
look and see it all around you...
Let your spirit be a beacon,
lighting the way through darkness...
In the end it's love that matters,
and how your life is truly measured.

Candles

2009-06-02T19:24:00.002+01:00

I watch the days live by day
I sense the nights sleep by night
Even thou this may seem tight
But most of all I feel my candle
Shedding light bit by bit
I know it so right
In my heart I want u here
But all I do watch my candle burn
Still it's out
And bare

Regret

2009-06-02T19:21:00.001+01:00

The blackness of night surrounds me
and once again I cannot sleep

I can’t stop thinking about what was and is and couldn’t be
regrets like brightly coloured ribbons slipping softly between my fingers

I close my eyes and images flash against the black outer space of my eyelids
they tease and taunt relentlessly begging to be remembered

I feel my anger in my tightly clenched jaw and the hardness of my teeth
trying to escape through a mouth that will not speak

I run my teeth along the inside of my mouth
it’s like a prisoner trying to escape the inevitableness of life

predictable, tried and true, scared to take chances on things that really matter
terrified of rejection and not being accepted
REGRET

I long for the fearlessness of my youth
when nothing seemed too big or insurmountable
everything was within grasp

A dream was just a thought away from reality…..

Siren

2009-06-02T19:17:00.002+01:00

Poised on the shale of my watery bed
Tangled in a seductive fantasy
Let my saltry voice ring in your head
Pale flesh radiates with the moon rays
Come to me, let me give you a taste
Step into my lair
Lay with me in my secret play pen
Honest and luminous
Magnetic beauty, can't help but touch
Go ahead,your touch ignites the passion
This immortal seduction
With the intensity, I reflect upon myself
I need your crimson flare to suffice my rousing bud
Let me peace your mind, bring your nocturnal emission
Follow me
so enticing
Take my hand
Don't take your eyes off
Watch me reach lunacy
When you're good and ready
your intoxication
Surrender to my toxic kiss
The time has come....my steamy sacrifice
I'll tick where the fire burns
I feed on the scarlet excretion
You opened the door to your own fate
Just couldn't turn from my enchantment
Now it is too late
The release of my song means your end
My immortal seduction......

Behind his eyes

2009-06-02T19:11:00.001+01:00

Behind my eyes
His shadow sings
Through my soul
The echo brings
Breath so cold
But never wanted
he gives me life
And leaves me haunted.
And what is life
If nothing's in it?
My perfect love,
My beloved infinite

The best thing

2009-06-02T11:39:00.001+01:00

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream

I looked in the mirror but saw his face

He looked right through me

He saw himself selfishly free

I never could pretend to be some else

If only he would see me like he saw himself

Faded dreams openly created fearlessly

Forgotten realities dreamt relentlessly

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

I'm alright
don’t be sorry, but it's true
when I'm gone, you realize
that I'm the best thing that happened to you

Untittled

2009-06-01T13:04:00.001+01:00

Out on the curb, in the pouring rain
Heartfelt moments, your lonely terrain
Windowless archways, soulless and vain
Icy shards, my breath gave you life
Forever taking, you never knew my price
I was the stranger in the dark
I was the deceitful web of lies

Inside the fire, my shadow sings
Hollow echo’s, my pain forever brings
I gave you life, you left me haunting
Corrupted ways, my innocence bygone
I was your companion in the bed of nails
I was the saviour left on the lonely trail

Numb with pain, in the ferocious maelstrom
Melancholy reflections, my forgotten time
Subdued reactions, your deliberate crimes
Solitudes erasures, priceless finds
I am the faceless thief in the night
I am the unmistakable poison in your veins

Ashisms

2009-06-01T00:00:00.010+01:00

Dumb Things my sister says to me..

Photo Gallery 2

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"The sisterhood of the travelling Skirts"

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About me

1990-09-08T08:00:00.004+01:00

My name is Aisha, my friends call me Ash. Some people may think its a strange nickname since it doesn't really match my name -I don't particularly care I like Ash as a name.

I'm 18 years old, although sometimes I have the temperament of a five year old. I would essentially describe myself as two images. One of which people perceive on impact. The second image is that of the person inside which shocks a lot of people. I am sort of like the weather, unpredictable yet predictable by the changing colours of my appearance.

Here are some things about me which may interest you, if not they may provide you with some information about my character. First of all I have a tattoo on my right wrist of a flaming star. My tattoo means success and failure to me. I designed it myself.
I plan to have another tattoo on my should blade of phoenix. Explained in 'realisations of a phoenix'.

Like most people my past times include reading. I like all genres of books but my favourite is "The Shadow of the Wind". Another past time is one I most likely share with girls-kind, shopping.I am blessed to be able to shop all day, every day without growing tired.

Other hobbies include photography, art and poetry.

Photo Gallery

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Photo Gallery 1 Contains pictures of me

Photo Gallery 2 Contains pictures of my photography

Photo Gallery 3 "The sisterhood of the travelling skirts..

Poems

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Unconditional Love

The best thing

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Behind His eyes

Siren

Regret

Candles

Faries

Dragon dreams

Fairy realm

Autumn Falls

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Realisations of the phoenix

1990-09-08T00:00:00.000+01:00

I thought Id tell you about my sites names and the significance of a phoenix. As per wiki
The phoenix is traditionally the name given to a colourful bird usually in bright orange and red, the colour of fire. The myth of the phoenix originates from Greek philosophy. A phoenix is a bird which is thought to have a life span of 500 to 100 years at the end of its lifespan it is thought to builds itself a nest of myrrh twigs that then ignites; both nest and bird burn fiercely and are reduced to ashes, from which a new, young phoenix or phoenix egg arises, reborn anew to live again. The new phoenix is destined to live as long as its old self. In some stories, the new phoenix embalms the ashes of its old self in an egg made of myrrh and deposits it in the Egyptian city of Heliopolis (sun city in Greek). The bird was also said to regenerate when hurt or wounded by a foe, thus being immortal and invincible — it is also said that it can heal a person with a tear from its eyes and make them temporarily immune to death. The phoenix is a symbol of fire and divinity.

Your probably wondering so what does the phoenix symbolise for my and why does my site carry the mythical creatures name? Well if you closely at the phoenix you will realise the phoenix is metaphoric representation of human life, no matter how many times you fall you will heal yourself just like the phoenix, helping others along the way. When you sense you cannot continue you will fall to ashes of dust but then the passion and desire will rapture into flames bringing you new spirit to carry on.

AshenPhoenix

Welcome back me!

Phoenix

Unconditional love

Blog

Dumb things my sister says to me...

The Autumn falls

Fairy realm

Dragon dreams

Faries

Candles

Regret

Siren

Behind his eyes

The best thing

Untittled

Ashisms

Photo Gallery 2

Blogroll

"The sisterhood of the travelling Skirts"

About me

Photo Gallery

Poems

Photo gallery 3

Realisations of the phoenix